Dispatch · No. 002

On meditation, reactivity, and the things that really need attention

4 min · essay

I hated meditation for fourteen years.

On the practice that finally stopped feeling like a waste of time — and what it asked of me when it started working.

— Gloria Baraquio · 2026

Meditation. I remind people that I hated meditation for the first 14 years of practicing it.

I kept doing it because I met teachers, monks and life coaches who swore by it. They had a grounded and happy way about them.

Finally, one day, meditation started to feel good. Right, and even nice. It stopped feeling like a waste of time and that constant need and desire to do something else, to be somewhere else, or to feel productive began to subside.

Now, on seemingly busy days, sitting in silence has become a non-negotiable. Clarity comes, and the things that really need attention are made known.

Spaciousness and fluidity are results. Everything can be done — in its right time. We go fast when we need to go fast and slow down when the moment asks for it.

Reactivity. Triggers. Patterns. Programs.

Which ones are running you? You'll never really know if you don't slow down and actively look.

Observe, notice, and inquire.

Stop and look. Listen.

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Originally posted to Instagram as @gloloveyoga